One Nation…..

What has my country become?

We have come to a time where some people are offended by statues, Some are offended by athletes taking a knee during the national anthem.   We have idiots who shoot up concerts and the list continues.

 

We’ve become a country where we want everyone to respect our thoughts, but we don’t want to respect anyone else thoughts.  That’s what this entire Anthem bullshit is.   We had some people that were offended because a statue or some Confederate General offended them.  Then they protested and started destroying public property.   They started an uproar because the Confederate Flag hurt their feelings.   So then we had the people on the other side, go you know what, I want to be offended too.  I want something to be upset about.  I know, I’m going to be upset with pro athletes that kneel during the national anthem and I’m going to boycott the NFL.

 

These are the same people that are in an uproar saying the athletes are disrespecting our troops, our flag and our country.  Yet they don’t protest the United States about all the veterans who are homeless, who get shitty health care insurance by the VA and our government.  They don’t speak out about these things, but they’re going to throw a fit because an athlete takes a knee?   Come on, People.

 

Oh you on the other side, don’t go .getting so cocky.  You’re not much better.  Bitching and complaining about the Confederate Flag and statues of Confederate generals?  You’re really in no boat to boast about how great you are.  You’re offended by a past that can’t be changed, no matter how many statues and flags you take down.

 

As a country we are more divided than we’ve ever been.  So many people that refuse to see the other sides viewpoint.  So many more that refuse to compromise with the other side and want their feelings and thoughts to be the law.   Our Fore Fathers would turn in their grave if they saw what this great country has become.

 

Open Letter

You can continue to fight me, but I will not go away.  My daughter means far more to me than me walking away.   I will continue to fight though the court system to see my daughter.  Right now it’s not much of a battle with her being placed in my care while CPS and the Juvenile Court follow their court case with you.    It still doesn’t change the fact that your quest to hurt me, to alienate me from my daughter has brought you to this point.  You think you are hurting me, no you are hurting OUR daughter.

 

I could take this time to go off on tangents about everything that went wrong but I won’t.   It doesn’t matter anymore.   You’d refuse to take responsibility for anything anyway.   See that is where you and I differ.  I know I could have done things differently, I know I have fault in what was our relationship, you refuse to take any and as an adult that is your right.

 

While I do have fault in our relationship, I find it humorous that you continue to try and drag my name through the mud.   The accusations of physical abuse make me chuckle.  No it was you that were physically abusive.  It was you that was unfaithful and it was you that talked to a man on that night, on Mother’s day, when we were heading up north so I could see my mother one last time before she passed.  Making jokes about having to go north to say goodbye to my mother.

 

All that being said, I don’t hate you.  I don’t want you dead or harmed in anyway.  I don’t even want you kept away from OUR daughter.  It wouldn’t be fair to OUR daughter.   You see this is where you and I will differ.   Sure you brought an Alcoholic with violence tendencies into your child’s life and you even went onto marry that man.   I still don’t want you not to see OUR daughter.  You are her mother and she deserves to have her mother in her life, just like she deserves to have her father in her life.

 

You can continue to spread your lies about My Fiancée and I telling OUR daughter that you’re a whore.  I don’t talk to you about her.   My opinion of you doesn’t need to be given to her.  Now in the beginning when she asked about what was going on.  I told her the same thing I told her when you went to County jail for Animal Cruelty.  That mommy has things she has to get taken care of and when that’s all done, we’ll see how things unfold.

 

Do you know how many times I’ve had to tell her it’s ok to see mommy on days of visitation?   Do you know how I tell her that she should want to see mommy?  No you want to spread lies and tell people that I keep your daughter from you.  I have never once refused a visitation.  No that would be you that has canceled at the last minute, have made it crystal clear to everything that the only time you’re going to do visitation is on Wednesdays at 4:00 pm.    You’re showing that you don’t care about your children because now they have to be removed from school early on Wednesdays so they can visit with you.   Could you be anymore selfish?

 

Like I said, you’re not hurting me in any of this.  Oh and I heard the rumor.  You’re going to take the kids and move to Washington when you get them back before a Custody battle can happen?  In our Temporary Order it states that you can’t move more than 100 miles from our daughter’s residence.   Go ahead and move, but realize that we will press charges and once you start moving children across state lines that becomes a FEDERAL offense.   I also find it hard to believe any man would just up and move to another state and abandon his child and that is exactly what your husband would be doing.

Parental Alienation

Hello my blogger friend

Just an update of sorts.

It looks like my Ex is going with the I’m causing my daughter anxiety defense for why she is not allowing me to see my daughter.   My daughter was taken to University of Michigan Mott Children hospital on 3/19/2016 four hours after my ex  told me my daughter needed to go to the hospital.     the report shows that my ex is claiming that when my daughter is suppose to go with me that she gets visually upset and starts throwing up.   Funny thing is I have only had my daughter one weekend since July 21 2015 and that weekend was on 3/11/2016.    My ex is claiming that my daughter doesn’t want to go with me.   Yet on 3/17/2016 she was taken to her primary care doctor, where my ex claims that my daughter doesn’t like my Fiancee (again, I have had her for 1 weekend since July 2015) and that I leave my daughter alone with her.   The only time my daughter has been left alone is when I went to the bathroom.   My daughter actually adores my fiancee, even telling my sister the weekend I had my daughter.  My daughter told my sister how much fun she was having and how much she liked my “friend”.

What my ex is failing to tell others is that she has had four (4) different guys in my daughter’s life since July.   She’s been engaged three times and has lived with two of those guys that I know about.   On the weekend of the 3/11, My Ex made a big stink about dropping off my daughter.  She has told my daughter that I will steal her and she will never see her mother again.   She then told my daughter at the drop off that I was making my daughter go, that she didn’t want her to go.   I have caught all this on video and it will be presented to the courts.   Then when I dropped off my daughter on the 13th.  My daughter was yanked out of the police station,  Her mother refused to take her medication from me (Which she failed to remember to bring on the 11th when dropping off my daughter).  She then went on to tell me that I would not see my daughter again and her new man told me not to waste my gas driving out to pick up my daughter again, Like I’m going to listen to a man that’s still married but engaged to another.  All of this is caught on video

The simple fact of the matter is my ex is doing a very bad thing and this in itself may be causing my daughter anxiety.   The thing she is doing is Parental Alienation and the bad thing is, my Ex did this to her Ex Husband with their 5 kids and is still doing it.  You may be asking yourself what Parental Alienation is.

You can check out the website http://www.paawareness.org/ for more information, but this is a definition from  their website.

 

Parental alienation (or Hostile Aggressive Parenting) is a group of behaviors that are damaging to children’s mental and emotional well-being, and can interfere with a relationship of a child and either parent. These behaviors most often accompany high conflict marriages, separation or divorce.

These behaviors whether verbal or non-verbal, cause a child to be mentally manipulated or bullied into believing a loving parent is the cause of all their problems, and/or the enemy, to be feared, hated, disrespected and/or avoided.

Parental alienation and hostile aggressive parenting deprive children of their right to be loved by and showing love for both of their parents. The destructive actions by an alienating parent or other third person (like another family member, or even a well meaning mental health care worker) can become abusive to the child – as the alienating behaviors are disturbing, confusing and often frightening, to the child, and can rob the child of their sense of security and safety leading to maladaptive emotional or psychiatric reactions.

Most people do not know about Parental Alienation and Hostile Aggressive Parenting until they experience it. Parental Alienation Awareness is put forth to help raise awareness about the growth in the problem of targeting children and their relationship in healthy and loving parent/child bond.

It’s rather sickening if you ask me.  That a parent, be it a mother or a father, tries to keep their child(ren) from a parent.   Every child deserves both  of their parents.  I have been with my daughter since the day that she was born, until July 21 2015.   I cared for her, I spent every moment I wasn’t at work with her.  I took her to the movies, to the park, on walks.  etc.   My daughter is the most important thing in my life and I will not walk away from her.

All I can ask is for parents all there to remember.  Even though you and your ex broke up and decided it wasn’t for you.  Remember you child did not break up with their mother or father.  Children are not trophies,  Child have rights and they have a right to see both parents.  No parent has the right to alienate their child from the other parent.

Today I am scheduled to get my daughter for the weekend but was told that my order doesn’t give me holidays.  First the order is temporary, second it doesn’t say anyone gets holidays.   I even offered to change my weekend to ease any hostility.

Mentally Abused?

Well my friends, here is the latest line of things coming down the pipe.   According to my daughter’s mother, I’m being accused of mental abusing my daughter.  From what I’ve gathered the investigation is coming from CPS, however nothing has been brought to my attention.   Claims that the report will be filed on Friday.  Has this woman had no moral compass?   I will fight these allegations, just like I will fight every other false allegation that is brought against me.    Honestly, She is making this easy for me by proving to the courts what a compulsive liar she is.    I will fight this and let the courts decide what is true and what is false.  Hope she’s willing to bring these allegations in front of a Judge.

Letter to my Daughter

Claire,

Our weekend together was great.  It filled my heart with so much love the moment I saw you.   I am so sorry for all that happened that Friday.   There is no need for you to be put in the middle of such hatred, you are the most precious thing in the world.   I am sorry that mommy and daddy couldn’t stay together.   It has nothing to do with you, you are not the reason.   Mommy and daddy just were not happy together and the constant fighting between us was not worth you or your brother’s and sister’s happiness.

I’m sure you’re going to hear a lot of negative things about me but the one thing I want you to remember is that no matter what is said that I love you and I want to see you.   Seeing your smile when you finally got to open your Christmas presents melted my heart.  Watching you sleep was one of the most wonderful things.  Hearing you laugh and play was pure joy.

Little girl, You are meant for better things and I will do everything in my power to make sure you are ready for the world at large.   The world is a mean, cruel place.  A place that will try and break you down, but it’s my job, as your father,  to make sure you are ready to take on the world.  You can be anything you want and I’m going to support you in anything you choose, because that’s what a parent does.

Do not be a victim, Do not count on others to bail you out of things.  Love yourself and love those that help you.  You deserve so much more than you have right now, Remember you are a human being and you deserve respect from everyone in your life.  You deserve to be loved unconditionally.

Munchie, No matter what, I will continue to fight to see you, to be a part of your life and I will until my dying breath try to be a part of your life.  I will leave no stone unturned but I will do that within the confines of the law and will not lie to get you.  You are the most important thing in my life and you will always be my little girl and I will always do what I can to protect you.

Just remember I love you very much and I want you in my life.

-Your Daddy.

Finally my order has come through

My new order has finally come in the mail.  Temporary Order is Joint Legal Custody and I get my daughter every other weekend from 6pm Friday to 6pm Sunday evening and every Wednesday from 6pm to 8pm.   Now I need to get my ex to actually let me see my daughter.  I haven’t been able to see her since September of 2015.

Maybe one day she’ll realize that the courts are going to let me see my daughter.  I have sent the emails to set up picking up Wednesday but I don’t know if I’ll get a reply.

I’m broken

heart

I am broken

I have been broken so many times that I have lost count.

People will never understand that pain I have let others put me through and these same people wonder why I worry.

I worry because I expect things to fall apart, I’m not even sure if I have ever been really loved. I do know that I have been used and abused and tossed to the side with no remorse or care about my feelings.

It’s so hard to let others get in close because of the choices of the others, but when I let you in I fall in love hard and fast and maybe that is my own problem and not yours.

I have been told by some that they love me. I have been told by some that they will never hurt me and they will be mine forever, only to some of these people destroy me.

It is not always the people I am relationships with. I realize I have my flaws and I’m not for everyone.

Some days I just want to take my heart out of my chest and throw it as far away from me as I can, anything to stop the pain that goes on in it and to stop the constant doubting that goes on in my head.

Maybe I’m better off alone, so I don’t hurt others? Maybe I need to save the world from me. Maybe I don’t deserve to be happy or maybe I just bring people down and hurt them.

Thank you for reading.

The beginning of the end?

 

 

chaosstar

 

Hello Blogger fans,

 

It’s been awhile and it hasn’t been all that great.   My life is all screwed up at this time and there’s not really much I can do to fix it.

My crazy psycho ex has gone off the deep end and has some how managed to get Wayne County to grant her a PPO on me.   She’s going around telling her new man and anyone that will listen that I raped her and the next night I put her in the hospital.   Well in 4 days I get my time to defend myself and hopefully get this thing done and over with.  I’m just scared because I know the person she is and I know she will pull out any stop to make herself look better.

I also have found someone I am greatly in love with and I’m very excited to have her in my life.  She has done more for me than anyone and I mean anyone has done in a long time.   She’s the sweetest female I have ever met and I love her deeply, I’m just curious that we are on different pages right now.  My life is so twisted and she still stands by my side and encourages me and I’m not sure if I could make it without her by my side.

She’s standing with a man that is not only homeless man but a man without a car.   This woman needs to be Sainted if you believe in that stuff.  She has helped me out more than she will ever know and has kept me on a good path more than she will ever know.  She has been not only my rock but has lifted me up higher than anyone has ever that isn’t family.

I’m worried that eventually she’s going to grow tired of it all and just wash her hands and honestly I wouldn’t blame her.   I am very thankful for her and my friend Rob, He’s has given me a place to stay and has been a ear to bend about things.  I truly am blessed to have both of them in my life and they will never know how great they have been to me the last few weeks.

My no car situation is about to be over.  Looks like I am getting a 99 Dodge Intrepid.  My brother is selling me my ex wife’s old car.  Yes I know ironic ain’t it?   My other brother did some work on the car and got it functioning and I thank them both as well as my family for all they have done.  I’m ready to get some wheels and hopefully find a place.  Then I’m going to find a new job.

I wish I could say my life is looking up but it’s not.  I’m full of fear and doubt and I don’t know how to handle it.  Maybe time, maybe not.  Maybe I need to grab myself by the collar and shake some sense into myself.  While I am in love, I have some fears and doubts and maybe I’ll share those with the cyberverse in the future, or maybe I’ll start putting up my walls again and keep those fears to myself.

Well blogger fans, that is all I got for you tonight.   Maybe I’ll blog again tomorrow or maybe I won’t.  Who knows.